these days i find myself thinking about my destiny.
"for we are God’s handiwork, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do." ephesians 2:10
what exactly are these “good works” that i’ve been created to do? i guess that’s the question on so many hearts today. i feel as though i’m on a treasure hunt to my destiny. picking up clues and deciphering the next step. lucky for me i think treasure hunts are awesome! i’ve always enjoyed riddles and good mysteries. i used to be obsessed with the “boxcar children” book series and “encyclopedia brown”! and some of my favorite tv shows always include a good mystery; csi, ncis, law and order svu basically any show with an acronym ! the hubby HATES watching movies or shows like that with me cus i’m constantly guessing who did what. im always right too. ok not always but my track record is impressive i promise. i’m prophetic baby!
in my walk with the Lord i feel as though i’m still in the process of ‘solving’ all the clues God has been leaving me. i’m so glad He isn’t boring and tells us everything all at once. cus that’d be wac. christian and i watched a movie trailer the other day and we basically saw the whole movie in a matter of 2 minutes. lame.
the other day i was praying for one of my emmaus staff and the word i got was that each desire and each gift that God has placed in her heart was like a thread that is getting woven intricately together to make the mantle (which literally was a cloak in OT) that she’s called to wear. i told her that even though initially she thinks that the colors of the different threads are clashing or would never be able to look good together, God in His ridiculously creative nature was going to “make it work”.
after i shared that word… i claimed it for myself btw you’re totally allowed to do that : ) sometimes i look at all the “clues” God has left for me and i just don’t understand how everything is going to fit…but I trust that when it all comes together imma be lookin fly!
so i totally forgot my iphone 4 at home today. i had such vivid and disturbing dreams last night that when i woke up this morning i was still very disgruntled and out of it. i rushed to get ready to leave for the office and completely left my phone on the bed still connected to the charger. all day i’ve been paranoid about the calls and messages i must’ve missed. i wanted to use the camera to take pics of random things throughout the day and couldn’t. i couldn’t look at my banking info, subway maps, or text inappropriate messages to my accountability group…which is always a highlight of my day : ) all the resources that my phone gives me were unavailable to me. needless to say i felt naked.
as i was doing my quality time with the Lord i felt as though He was nudging me with a question. you see i’m an avid dreamer. God has spoken to me through dreams and continues to do so. usually dreams come in the package of a symbolic puzzle that needs to be solved. it’s impossible to do so without the Holy Spirit. so symbols are important to pay attention to and decipher.
phones in dreams often symbolize prayer. i remembered this when i was writing down one of my dreams which had a phone in it. at that moment God asked me “is prayer as important to you as your iphone is?”
now i know what you’re thinking. that’s a lame question. of course prayer is more important… i mean i’m a pastor’s wife… it would be illegal to say otherwise right? well i have to be honest, i had to fight anxiety and frustration all day because i was without my phone. do i really experience that when i’m unable to spend time with the Lord in prayer? do i feel naked when i can’t commune with the Lord on an every day… moment by moment basis?
i was convicted. may my ability to commune with God and connect with all the heavenly resources that are available to me FAR outweigh anything else…including my awesome but compared to God very lame iphone 4. i’d rather face time with Him than anyone else.